Hey P when you wake up today. I want you to think about going to the doctor. Happy pills. Please think about it. Not a weakness. Look at what you suffered. And I know what it is like where you live. How people are. Most of the North Americas here who offer advice will not understand. You have been stronger than you can imagine. Your inner strentght has been amazing.
I am looking forward to going home next year and visiting. At least out off all of this. You found a new friend on the outside world.
You just gotta get stable. You have started such a beautiful path with your daughter. And you should lean on her mother. She has offered unconditional love. Take it. And when you do have feelings towards her. Walk away. And travel to those ruins and listen to the waves crashing. And talk to her in a week. And if she has a friend. Invite them both over for dinner. And enjoy both their company. She will help. She is the mother of your daughter. You two are forever linked. And this has given you the chance to be a father again. Take it. And enjoy it. Life is going to get very good.
I am guessing that you're thinking that I always look up in life.
Well your right. I do. A second mistake in life has given you the chance to correct the first. Hug her the next time you see her. And when you see her mother hug her as well. And let her know that you are hurting and that you need a friend. Not a lover. And take this gift to build your friendship. A hurtful gift. But a gift.
And next year. When I go home. I will fly over. And you will introduce me to both. And I will not understand a word you say. Because you speak an english that is not english
Anyways. Things are going to get better.
Flowers always make people better, happier, and more helpful; they are sunshine, food and medicine for the soul. unconditional love is awesome!
