First time poster feeling a bit lost

[MT21]

Sandii,

I put in my last post that I felt pity for her... I am not sure this is the right emotion.

Its more like I see her...I see her pain..I dont feel her pain..

Does that make sense? Before I would have also been hurting?

The other thing..we are still sharing household chores..other wise the house will just get too messy and fall apart..that wont be good for the kids.. But tonight I went to put on a clothes wash...Its not a nice thing to mention but Its really creeping me out..I couldnt wash her smalls... ewwww!!

I am gonna have to tell her to do her own.. (Its kinda like having spiders crawl on me..)

Thats generally how I feel towards her now..(glamorous when going out/not that pretty when at home(never saw that before)...and somehow covered in spiders...ewwww...)

Someone can delete this part of the post if you wish its really unkind but that's exactly how I feel.I cant help myself..

P.s. I am going on a date this week..just dinner but shes a nice, I have told her the sitch and she understands...it will be nice to talk someone about normal stuff instead of this..

she is also hot..and even if I do say it myself slightly fitter and hotter(with no spiders :))..(friends for now though)

MT