I will make it. We will make it. I even had a few minutes here and there that I enjoyed myself this weekend. I took S to some snowmobile races this weekend. S started getting sad that W wasn't there though.
I had been at a loss as to what to do about a Christmas gift for her. I decided that I would put together a little stocking for her to be from S and me. Nothing special, just a few little trinkets.
I wish I knew where this was headed. I am moving on as if we are D'd. W said she doesn't know what she wanted but wasn't planning to file when I told her that she may as well just go do it a couple of weeks back. It seems as if we have just moved onto a different stage of limbo.
In reading your post, I just realized something about the saying "It takes 2 to make a M work but only 1 to take it apart." Well, you and me, and many others here, can be the 1 to take it apart. Not that it will be pleasant, but we DO get to decide if we want to stay in limboland. Only takes 1 to leave that place.
As for the present for W, I plan on taking the kids shopping and let them pick something out. It will be from the kids ONLY. My name will not be on any presents to her. This may surprise her family, but that's their problem.
And W is not expecting a present from me as she has already told me she does not plan on buying ME anything, but will let the kids pick something out for me. Thanks honey.
Your choice on the present. I am just trying to "keep it realer" than W. If this is what she wants, I will not placate her any longer by pretending to be her H.
