A Choice

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W has not set a date. W was the one that brought it up, about going back. I did ask if she wanted us to go together. She said not at first. This was a week ago.

Spoke to W this morning and asked the same question. She said she has not called yet. Will wait until after the holidays.

W is pretty go bout keeping up with things. I believe she will go. I think once she gets in there it will help. originally she stopped going when she found out her C was pro M. He told her she was wrong for leaving the R for another man and that was the last time she went back in Nov.

W also stated that she would like to get back in church. She must be feeling guilty. I asked when she'd like me to pick her up. She again said, she does not know but maybe start going back after holidays, but not to our church. Stated she ran into other woman from church and prob would not feel comfortable going back there. Does not want to be constantly judged.

She followed with, we will have to deal with that when we decide to go back to church. She said she would hate to uproot me from those that have been offering me so much support...

Inside, I smiled.... I did not even know she knew about all of you guys here! That funny right there.

And ya know, I do believe my M is salvagable. W and I have always been strongpeople. We both just got lost in life. W's expectations/fantasies of how her life and M would turn out may not have measured up. The little girl fantasies are prob a let down. But if she looks really hard, she'll see the nice home, nice car, dog in the yard and a man that has loved her before he even knew how to breathe.

I'm prayin she sees.

And ywes, I will tune out the neg energy!