Doc, I just read you entire post. I am relatively new here myself so, I won't presume to offer advise. I have found, it helps to read about simillarly situated persons to gain objectivity and perspective on my own situation.I will say that you and I have a lot in common in terms of our background, situation, and our reactions/responses. We are learning to do right things to get the skills we need to move forward, either with this R or with another. I hope the very best for you.
