Originally Posted By: bluerain
Sorry today was a rough day undefeated. But you know what, yesterday was good, today was lame, tomorrow is another chance to have a good day. I think that its important that you remember that when you go dark, not only is he not being bothered by you, but since you are dark, you are not having the constant disrespect of the A and the WAH shoved in your face.
And there is something pretty significant to be said about that.


That's true, but it doesn't get them off my mind. frown

Originally Posted By: bluerain
I dont know how you were while you were involved in your A, but these people can be extraordinarily cruel, so theres at least some silver lining to the no contact.


I was a lousy person, following the "script" to a "T". I hope that gives everyone here with a WAS some hope. I came to my senses and so others can too.

Originally Posted By: bluerain
Can you let your parents take a over a little to ease your burden, even if its just temporarily?


Don't I wish. They are too hard on the boys for me to let them babysit for any length of time. My parents are wonderful people, and they do help when they can. But they over-value quiet and calm. The kids can't be kids. They can't run or be loud, and it's really hard to get them outside since it's been so bitterly cold here.

Originally Posted By: bluerain
I was wrestling with my hose today which was stretched out across the garage floor to dry out and it was really stiff and hard because its so dang cold and I had a very similar thought. I am so tired of being the only one- its so much harder when you are the only one to take care of everything! And that was just me freaking out over a garden hose! I have to admire you quite a bit for doing it with 3 little boys!


Evil hose! I hope you gave it what-for. laugh



Originally Posted By: bluerain
But remember, we all have bad days, and that's all this was, a bad day.


You're absolutely right, of course. I got an appt with my therapist for Wednesday morning for S4, an especially nice favor as she usually doesn't work Wednesdays. I'm so very worried about him. He's only 4! Maybe I'm overreacting, but I guess I want to make sure this doesn't escalate. I went to jail for stealing. What if I could have gotten help when I was a kid? Does anybody think I'm nuts for taking a four-year-old to therapy?

I'm going to do my best to smile today and keep busy. And hey, the in-laws left, so that's one less thing, right?

Thanks again, blue.

P.S. - Look at me! I figured out the embedded quotes! LOL


undefeated 24
H 24
S's 4, 2, 1
M 5 yrs

"Most of the important things in the world have been accomplished by people who have kept on trying when there seemed to be no hope at all." ~Dale Carnegie