K4D It's a Wonderful Life

[K4D]

Did you begin the process to settle your accounts so you are both 110% on your own financially?

Not yet. It is on my mind.

She had no problem asking you to release ownership so she can do what she wants, now you do the same.

It's back to business for her. How is taking care of your business going?

It is still on the wayside.

I never said you would not make the holiday special for your children. What I said was it seems you are channeling so much energy into this gamble and reaching a turning point with your W that many of the small but beautiful joys of the holiday season are passing you right by.

Here you are trying to show your W that you are trying to be united with her on the holidays and her next text is about the title of a van. You and your W are at *very* different places right now. Maybe it will always be that way and maybe not. My point is you are seeking a turning point that may benefit the future and you are sort of forgetting about the present. And I don't mean that the holiday won't be nice for your children... I mean you are forgetting about YOUR present.

I know that Christmas is about the birth and spirit of Jesus. Rememberence and celebration of Jesus. Loving and taking in the special time of year for all it is worth and giving of yourself to help others. It is about family and friends coming together and making special memories together.

Yes, she is in a different mindset than me. Nothing changed there. Something I noticed which I think I have noticed before is when her hair is down and done up, she has a completely different and almost cold attitude about things. But when her hair is pulled back and up and she looks casual, she is all of a sudden nice, warm, and friendly. I have noticed this many times in the past. It is none the less always interesting to see again. It is like Jeckle and Hyde.

But anyways, yes, I am more focused on gambling for a turning point than I am my own joy of the Christmas season this year. You are right in that. I am working hard to make it good for my kids and everyone else pretty much forgetting about myself other than trying to plant a seed that can regrow again down the road.

Kevin