Hi, Karen, I appreciate your thoughts on this. They're in line with how I have been feeling.
I had a conversation with some of my DC friends this weekend and I mentioned this infraction to them, seeking their advice. Their responses pretty much covered all the mixed emotions I have been struggling with.
In the end, I have decided to notify the parenting coordinator (PC) in writing about this new development, but to fully expect nothing significant to come of it -- instead I will move onward knowing that I have at least documented this with a court-appointed official.
The key thing is I have to realize (again) these things my ex does are beyond my capacity to affect -- and that I must put her and her hangups in God's hands. My problem is that I have continued to forget to let go and let God -- and that tenet needs to be ingrained in my whole being. I think I am getting there.
The other thing I have to do, and this has been coming out more and more through everyone I talk to and every action I see and in things I am noticing in general, is to restart moving on with my life, to re-begin the GAL efforts I had been progressing so well upon prior to the D and the custody battle that followed this Summer. I believe there is a time to move on down the road of life and a time to seek cover and entrench. The Summer of 2009 and much of this year was a time that I found I needed to hunker down and weather the storms. But it is now well past time that I move on down the road, to take this journey forward again.
None of this is going to be easy, mind you. But then no one ever said it would be. For one thing, I'm still dealing with the financial aftermath of the legal battles, and I have a long row to hoe to get me out of that debt. It will be tough, but I am determined to begin to enjoy the path I am on, as there is no other.
I fully expect my ex to continue to try to make my life miserable. I will let her make her repeated attempts and learn to ignore her completely. She is now a closed chapter in the book of my life and I need to concentrate on penning the next exciting chapter of NCB.
