Hi all, it's been 3 days since I posted!!! Not much to post anyway. A lot has happened but the end result is the same. H agreed to the total honesty committement which for me is a big deal. I know it doesnt sound much, but in the context of our discussion it was important.
We spent the weekend with the kids and my little ones are so happy... Did some Christmas shopping, went out with my brother and his family, I visited friends while he was working...
I also had a meltdown last night. I miss my friend. Terribly. And some times my mind wanders. Then later, I started crying because he mentioned Christmas 2006 which was the last Christmas before the separation that I was completely unaware of the A and he was crazy in love with her... Christmas day is her nameday so I was remembering that day how he kept disappearing with his phone while our friends were visting for dinner... He saw me and asked what was wrong. I told him and added "my life then was a lie. I was living in a fake reality". He tried to console (sp?) me but instictively I pulled away.
