here we go again

[Jstar]

no mention of what i wrote in the msg, not once but twice i sent.

he's going off of what worked in the past, and i have not taken it. it's like oh jstar i've come out saying you are my wife, i love you, i'm gonna give you money so can i come over.

he doesn't even say or ask hey can we get together to talk, lets try again, go to counseling,

before in early nov when we kind of were talking, he asked what would be dif about this xmas, and i said nothing because you are frozen by fear and live in a box, you will continue to do the same thing when you have all the power to change the situation.

that is exactly what he is doing. i'm not buying his drop off money, the one msg of i love you or returning his calls. it's like jstar support means money so if i give you some then i can see my kid.

i feel like sending him a msg saying, obviously you have no clue what showing me and these kids what genuine respect and support is, i wish happy holidays and out dark again.

never once in all of this has he genuinely asked how the dr appointments have been going, as a matter of fact we go today for another ultra sound and next day back to ob.

i'm sure he will send something today or he is just going to give up and have no contact at all.

suggesting a time to visit, maybe, i feel like if i do he will show up, but i also feel that d2 and i have to be late, and leave early.