Sorry today was a rough day undefeated. But you know what, yesterday was good, today was lame, tomorrow is another chance to have a good day. I think that its important that you remember that when you go dark, not only is he not being bothered by you, but since you are dark, you are not having the constant disrespect of the A and the WAH shoved in your face.
And there is something pretty significant to be said about that.

I dont know how you were while you were involved in your A, but these people can be extraordinarily cruel, so theres at least some silver lining to the no contact.

Can you let your parents take a over a little to ease your burden, even if its just temporarily?

I was wrestling with my hose today which was stretched out across the garage floor to dry out and it was really stiff and hard because its so dang cold and I had a very similar thought. I am so tired of being the only one- its so much harder when you are the only one to take care of everything! And that was just me freaking out over a garden hose! I have to admire you quite a bit for doing it with 3 little boys!

But remember, we all have bad days, and thats all this was, a bad day.

I guess I gave the wrong finger to the wrong man...