Look what you started! You know darn right and well that there are no real updates on my sitch--just lots of wierdness continuing. DH still professes to not want to be married, but is here everyday. He spent 10+ hours over two days trying to fix the lights on my Christmas tree, then stripped them off and put all new ones on.
The kids are doing pretty good, overall. D10 is suffering with an increase in her depression and is very angry at DH for not coming home. D6 and D10 are praying for a Christmas miracle with regards to DH moving home. Of course, so am I.
I have had some weepy moments. With DH not on deployment this Christmas, I am having to face the true reality of my situation--which I did not have to do last Christmas.
D18 finally had a full psych eval done. If there is an issue to be had, she has it. ADHD, bi-polar, hypochondria, Depression, anxiety disorder, conduct disorder, and anti-social personality disorder. The projected onset for most is taergetes for around when DH moved out last year and his leaving is considered a major trigger for her bipolar presentation.
I am doing well enough, though. I have my family and my church family for lots of support. I am still struggling with patience with the kids daily, but God is still working on me. I have hd many blessings that have allowed me to pretty much clear up my debt and really bless my family for Christmas.
D6 had severe swollen lymph glands with an undetermined cause. The Dr put her on heavy duty antibiotics and said it would take 4-6 months for the swelling to go down. Within a week, the gland was less than half the size at the beginning of treatment. D6 politely informed anyone who would listen that God and Jesus healed her because they love her and she loves them. What an amazing faith she has!!
S3 is now S4. I do not know where all the time has gone! It was right around his 2nd birthday that DH's A began. S4 is a sweet, handsome little man, but he is struggling with some depression, too. He spends more nights sleeping with either me or his sisters than he does in his own bed. He is terrified of being abandoned and does not like for me to leave him with anyone for any length of time.
It really hit me around S4's birthday how much of his life DH has missed out on, yet S4 adores his daddy. Then again, I still do, too.
I do not have much to say and am horribly busy truying to get on with life here, so I do not come around DB too much anymore. I still think about all of you often, though.
Living God's bessings with grace and dignity~ SMW
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Love never gives up, never loses faith, is always hopeful, and endures through every circumstance. I Corinthians 13:7
