It is so hard to take this trip alone, it will be the first time I will do it without my W. I know that I need to do this though, I have always been hesitant to go away without her and that is bad for both of us. My parents will of course ask why she didn't come and you are right, at this point, I won't lie. Just wondering if I should keep it to a generic me and W are having some problems without getting into the A thing. I have not told my family about it yet because I wanted to keep the road back to our M smooth and my parents would definitely hold what she has done against her for a long time.
I do think she is suprised that I am holding firm on going. I agree that it is time to start recapturing my self-respect. Maybe this will be a good start.
