Alison, just read your post to Trusting and your pain is so raw,please try to let this go,it will torture you and rob you of any joy that will come your way. My children have seen their father once in the past 9 years! well he spent 2hours extra with his daughter almost a year after she gave him his first g/child. Believe me I know how it hurts even though he has no other children he has stepchildren and older g/c. I am so proud of my kids they have achieved great careers and lovely partners and are really good people and very good to me. This will be my first C.mas(in 60 yrs!) waking up alone not a soul in the house and if I let it, that thought will bring me to my knees so I am busy preparing and going through the motions and clinging to my attitude of gratitude. Life changes and we must change too. Not easy but the only way to go. I hope you will find some comfort and joy these holidays,look for the small things and look forward. Thinking of you.
