I'm on holidays and I've been spring cleaning and I think the cleaning plus the Christmas season is getting to me. I found letters and cards H had sent me and I had a few tears as I re-read them and I felt both angry and regretful that the love we once shared is now gone and over.
S went to the business dinner the other night and the stuff he relayed about OW really confirms that H is a totally different person if he's satisfied with her. She's the very person H would have mocked in the past. However, she hangs on his every word and this obviously makes him feel good.
Selling the business was a relief, I think but I guess the settlement anxiety raises its head now. When my brother and his family arrive I'll be distracted again.
