I know. Just take it one day at a time. Just think, each day is a clean sheet of paper with no mistakes on it. Everyday is something different. don't focus on what is coming but the joy each day in itself can bring.
I know I am not facing what you are, but my heart is with you hon.
hugs, kat
Me-53(and learning!) S24, S21, D18, D17 Just keep swimming, Just keep swimming. Dory