I have been lurking here since Oct 09. Fiance of 2 years; together 8. Supposed to get married New Years Eve.

August 09: Possibly losing engineering job after 23 yrs; son going thru divorce; attempted suicide, mom in/out of hospital with depression, turning 50 in March, buried two close friends, we had a horrible fight. He leaves suddenly, August 31, 09.

Lives in a hotel for 6 weeks then moves into a room of a house of a friend. No OW until Oct 3; lasted 3 weeks. I had been doing DB; he contacted me; first time since end of September.

Saw him Sunday after Thanksgiving, spent night. (After he spent 13 hours on the road coming from his dad's, which I feel was very good for him).

When I send a text "thinking of you, I am here if you need me," etc. I got responses. Have been having GREAT talks about his anger, possible depression, he still loves me, etc. Two nights later he is taking another woman out and wants no contact with me.

I am so confused and do not really know what to do now.

I am leaving Christmas day thru New Years for a trip by myself. No one really knows.

I have made no contact since Wednesday, December 16, and plan to keep this up.

I have tried, unsuccessfully to read "MLC resources: all links in one thread II" and cannot access them; anyone have any ideas?

Would love to read some threads by someone who was in MLC themselves.
Any thoughts greatly appreciated.


M 44
H 49
Together 8 years
Engaged 1 year
Left 08/09
Havingfaith