Start of the end..

[iwantittowork]

Well, picked up d8 on Sat AM, and I decided to ask my STBXW about the surgery.

I was concerned for her health, and so I asked compassionately just that ss17 had said you had to have surgery, are you ok? Not what it was, or why she needed it.

She said yes, and then told me what it was without me asking, that she had to have a revision surgery. I just acknowledged and said, oh, for your enlargement, and then she offered the explanation without me asking, that they had been causing her pain in some instances and needed to be adjusted.

I just told her that I had been concerned, and glad she was ok.

I went through the bills/mail, and she had inserted the cable bill there, so I just handed it to her, and said this is yours to pay. I don't even think she has read the courts temp order, or understands that she is responsible for this stuff, so I keep watch for things like this, as it keeps happening.

I played with my dog, who I realize that I miss a lot, she was so excited to see me, and was jumping all over me, and licking my face, and nearly knocking me over. I couldn't help it, but it made me laugh heartily, she is just a big rambunctious lovable bear! She was running laps in the kitchen and living room she was so happy, and nearly knocking STBXW's Christmas tree over! Darn funny at the time..

I left with some odd thoughts, and I understand where they are coming from, I was almost happy that those had caused her pain. I don't like that I thought that, but accept that I did, and again, I will be working on myself as I don't want to be the bitter man that wishes, or is happy, when she is in pain.