Deployed Soldier/Father needs your help

[SoldierDad]

I don't know why I feel the need to see another person suffer-especially my W, but it just doesn't seem fair-well NONE of this is fair huh?

My boys and I are almost ready to get on the road to Mom's house. We are excited-we love road trips!!!

It is going to be so hard to not think of what she is doing on Christmas, and if she really went somewhere-that kind of stuff just eats at me sometimes. I think that is the controller in me.

When my oldest left the house, she tried to hug him, he just brushed past her and got in the truck. I told him he needs to respect his M, and he quickly replied "she doesn't respect us or you, so why should I respect her?"

I quickly explained to him that he still needed to respect his M, and he just said ok.

I have to get her and what she "might" be doing out of my mind. THIS IS WHAT I STRUGGLE WITH MORE THAN ANYTHING...