I'm still depressed, don't cry as much, but having a hard time being anywhere close to what I was.
You have some work to do my friend. This is a back and forth type of thing for a while. It takes time. You have to take your focus off of her and place it on yourself and your children.
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Is it normal for a mlc to talk about and justify the divorce to the kids.
Absolutely.
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do i really take some of the venom personally?
Now this is something you CAN control. I wouldn't if I were you. You have to remind yourself that this is not your normal wife. Why buy into this BS? You know better.
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she's upset that in a text she was just going off and i texted back, least didn't waste 19yrs, she then texted i was the one that threatened divorce, not true.
so does there changing just constantly change to justify what they're doing.
They will say and do whatever it take to convince themselves and others that what they are doing is perfectly ok. They are in denial of their issues much like an addict.
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ended it with yes you have to have emotional detachment, you have to attack, you have to see me as a demon, you have to hate me for awhile.
she got upset because i turned a couple things on her, used her words vs her, like she texted something that was not anywhere close to what she had texted earlier, so i forwarded that text the new one and "just whichone is it?"
she responded with leave me alone, so i did, but she continued to text for over an hr with all kinds of bs.
Stop playing her game. This will get you nowhere. The more you go back and forth with her the worse it will get. You are interacting with her like she is normal. Why? Again....you know better.
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i am desperate to get some simplace of my old self back, i don't have the fire like i used to guys and i'm scared.
That's why it's so important for you to realize this MUST BE ABOUT YOU. Get your focus back where it belongs. On you buddy. You are taking the crap she spews to heart.
Why would anyone who is truly happy feel the need to treat others this way? You are giving her way too much power over you. If you are feeling desperate at the moment chances are she sees it too.
It's like you're forgetting what this is all about.
Time to start moving forward again AYK. You can do this.
You have to remind yourself that this is not your normal wife. Why buy into this BS? You know better.
