Surprise - she called me this am around 710 to say she was thinking about me and to wish me good luck in Court today. (I was involved in a traffic accident several months ago and the hearing on my ticket is at 9 this am - hope to get it continued and then dismissed) and she also wanted me to call her after hearing to tell her what happened.
She then asked me to forgive her for not letting me stow away in her suitcase on her cruise. I hesitated and hem hawed around some before finally saying with a sad voice, “well, I will let it pass this once, --- but don’t let it happen again” She laughed and said “ok” —
Since I was going to clean up some of my remaining stuff at her house on Sateruday after she left I had suggested last Wednesday that I might come over in time to say goodby before she left. While she said I was welcome, I kinda got the idea she was somewhat less than eager for me to come and I dropped the subject and did not mentioned it again. But this morning she told me I could come over tomorrow am before she left if I wanted to. Said that even thought she might be "frazzled" that I was welcome and that her sister was picking her up around 8am. She didn’t really say she wanted me to come over, -- but she all but did. I told her that I did not want to get in the way but if she really wanted me to come I would and maybe I could get there in time to share a cup of coffee with her and she could just relax before leaving. Her voice seemed happier at that. I also got the feeling that she still does not want to admit to herself that she wants me to come over so she just relies on hints. I have picked up that even though she does initiate IM’s, and phone calls, she still does not initiate suggestions for actual contacts, i.e. dates. Maybe this is why I do all the initiating or suggestions for dates and she has always accepted them and even suggest additional time/activities, etc.
I wonder if I back off on the suggestions for actual contacts if she would take up the slack? (The seesaw effect). Well, after tomorrow am she will be gone for 5 days without any contact and be on her (in her words) first cruise without me. I will see what she is like when she gets back on Thursday.
