Well - W is getting ready to go on Sister Trip Cruise and with all the excitement of going, the excitement of us and our R is on the back burner. Kinda to be expected though.
She did IM me this morning though very excited about the HOPE CHIME (the little wind chime I bought her on our date the day of our final hearing.) she IM’ed me in ALL CAPITAL letters “I HAVE RAINBOWS“. When I asked what she meant she said “YOUR LITTLE PURPLE THING IS SHINING RAINBOWS RIGHT ON MY DESK WHERE I'M WRITING - IT'S NEAT”
It is nice to know that the last two things I got her (the painting of Cades Cove in the Smokey Mountains, and the HOPE CHIME) were placed in very prominent places in her home. The first in her bedroom and the second in the window of her office.(she works out of her home) And she made an effort to let me know both. After hanging up her pictures she asked me when I was over there to go look at them and the Cades Cove was right in the middle. And she IM’ed me about where she put her HOPE CHIME.
Since right now she is kinda in her own world in getting ready for the sisters cruise trip I will just use this time to review and update my goals. I have a lot that I have accumulated since starting the DB’ing.
Goals Not Achieved - Achieved
1. Get back together 2. Want her to say ILY 3. Want her to ML to me 4. Want her to call me. - She has on several occasions - still want more often tho. 5. Want her to kiss me - She has on several occasions - want more though and she says she has strange feelings about kissing me so soon after divorce. But she keeps kissing me and even will initiate. 6. Want her to hug me - She has on several occasions - want more though and she says she has strange feelings about hugging me so soon after divorce. But she keeps hugging me and even will initiate. 7. Want her to go out with me - Have done this two times since D (one a 30 hour date) and she came to my apartment for dinner. 8. Want her to kiss my neck like she use to - she did once but then stated she was sorry for teasing me - told her she could do that whenever she wanted to - no strings attached. 9. Want her to give me a back rub - she did start to lightly rub my foot the other day when we were sitting on the couch and I had my leg up near her. It is a start. 10. Want her to give me little gifts - she has on occasions. 11. Want her to invite me over to her house - when I am there late she has asked me to stay in the guest room but she has not asked me to come over and stay. 12. Want her to stay with me at my appt - at my dinner in my apartment she said she had thought about staying the night but that she still was just not ready. Did say that she likely would in the near future. Maybe with only cuddling and no ML. 13. Want her to go away with me for weekend - is talking about it but not with enthusiasm. At least she is not dismissing the thought. 14. Want her to go on a cruise with me - is talking about it but not with enthusiasm. At least she is not dismissing the thought. 15. Want her to go to my convention with me in April 04 - she knows this is a ways away and we can kinda ignore for now - if my last two happen then this will likely happen. She did say it was possible. 16. Want to set up standing weekly dates with her (like every Friday night for dinner to talk) 17. Want her to talk with DB coach 18. Want her to listen to Keeping Love Alive (KLA) cd’s
Well - some goals have been reached and some yet to go.
