Went to a neighbors with W for a get together tonight. They announced that they are going to have their first child and I was really happy b/c they have really tried hard to have one. We don't have kids and always said we didn't want them but I think both of us had been rethinking this before the bomb dropped. I was happy for them but at the same time, sad for us...
It is so hard to go out and pretend like you are a normal couple when your W would rather be with someone besides you. I think my heart hardened towards her tonight, I don't want to be near her right now. I'm really feeling emotionally tired.
