I'm still depressed, don't cry as much, but having a hard time being anywhere close to what I was.
Is it normal for a mlc to talk about and justify the divorce to the kids.
do i really take some of the venom personally?
she's upset that in a text she was just going off and i texted back, least didn't waste 19yrs, she then texted i was the one that threatened divorce, not true.
so does there changing just constantly change to justify what they're doing.
yes sent her all the info like she asked, didn't help, she emailed me to accept blame, i must've listed 100 things about me, tried to take some of the fire away from some of her putdowns by acknowledging names or quirks of mine she hasn't made fun of yet.
ended it with yes you have to have emotional detachment, you have to attack, you have to see me as a demon, you have to hate me for awhile.
she got upset because i turned a couple things on her, used her words vs her, like she texted something that was not anywhere close to what she had texted earlier, so i forwarded that text the new one and "just whichone is it?"
she responded with leave me alone, so i did, but she continued to text for over an hr with all kinds of bs.
responded with kids and i will wait for our wife to show up.
i gave it a good wk like she asked of info and kids begging on emails, they were books, more on my faults and not bashing her.
but since that email, she actually has said hi and called me, i let the call go to voice mail, just texted back k, then after bball game she followed me out she said something i nodded and walked away, she said goodbye to my dad and son, nothing to me of course.
i've admitted or acknowledged everything by this pt.
i am desperate to get some simplace of my old self back, i don't have the fire like i used to guys and i'm scared.
