A Choice

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S2

I have read you original stich. imLin was great also. There was many helpful things gather from the many threads there. Got the opportunity to grow a bit reading your story.

Wanted you to know that I am reading "Women Infidelity I & II, half way thru the 1st ebook. I about fell over in my chair I never heard (read) such things. Weird part about it isthat all of it makes perfect sense. I will admitt thou, half way thru the 1st book, things are not looking good for me. I hope it changes for the better before I get to the end of stage 4. My W is teeter toddering between stages 3&4.

What changed it for you? From the ebook I mean. Do you think I should give it too my W. I would have to email it to her as we are not currently living together.

I pray everyday that I would have the same support here that you have had. I know that I will. I am a good talking when around folks, but this typing thing is driving me crazy. I can only type with 2 fingers. It's a slow go, but I'ma going!

I mentioned that my son was in college. He wants to be a Doctor. He told me that this would be good research for him as he wants to be a psychiatrist. He has shut completely down toward my W. I pray the the Lord will soften his heart. I know he has the right, but if her problem is with me, he should not feel that way. I still defend my wife when my son or other (mostly my family say bad things about her. S hould I still do that... defend.

There were some very positive things said last night. I hope she follows thru with them. After reading your stich, if and when she does come home, I know to take it extremely slow.

W asked about boundaries after I gave her the OM boundary. I just told her that because we never set healthy boundaries during our marriage, we find ourselves here in this situation. She and I set a few others last night as well. I mostly listened to her talk, something I rarely have done.

Oh, and the TV thing... man talk about bad luck... Demons were zinging all over that arena today... you know, I knew she was going to the game, and often times, when folks ya know are at an event like this... 20 or 30,000 people there. We always look for a chance to catch a glimpse of them.... never see them though.... but I be a ........ there she was... umm umm umm!

Did not get sad though, just started DB'ing the TV. Went totally dark on that thing. Heck, it is sharing a house with me, I am not even interested in what it has to say right now.

i was wondering what I should do now? Is there a next step. Or do I just sit on it for now.

FYI... I will keep claiming God's promise. I have confessed it in faith the she will return and we shall reconcile.

As for actually filing D. I do not believe in it. My W is a fallen Christian (big time), but God has His hands on her. I pray daily for the barrier of thorns to be placed around her. I believe it is working.

I am not dark right now. But I will not be calling her, and if she TM's me, I will be extremely slow to respond if at all.

What did you mean when you said, plus she is with OM again, so that will influence her thinking?

Oh, never mind... it just hit me

Well, S2 I got to crash.... Church thingy in the morning...

God Bless you! Come back often. I'd like to talk to you some more, especially because I have a new profound knowledge of exactly what W is going through.

Thanks