Well - While no news would have been good news, some news, however, is not bad news. Even though she went home, all in all it was a very good night.
Dinner went very well - She loves steak and I had a nice ribeye with green beans and Carrots and onions in a butter sauce and a tossed salad to start. I had given her a CD of Floyd Cramer playing country hits and I lit two candles and had the lights down. All during dinner we laughed and talked and just had a very good time. After dinner I fixed her a cosmopolitan (her favorite mixed drink). We sat on the porch after dinner and watched the sun go down while drinking our Cosmopolitans (yes, OUR, a 180 for me in that I never drank one with her before even though I would make them for her)
After the sun went down we came in and talked some more but got more into our R. She did say that when she dropped the bomb that she never thought we would be kissing and hugging within two months. But she said she still has a lot of anger to work through. She is angry that the marriage did not work. She said she was asking herself during dinner, Why we could not have done more of that during our last year of marriage. I told her that her ex husband would not have done that but the new me will never tire of doing special things. She said she can see the possibility of us together again but she needs time and wants to work on building the friendship part first. I believe she is right on that as in every marriage the spouses should be friends. And while she feels an internal conflict with kissing me she still does it and will even initiate the hug or kiss first quite often. She even stated that she seriously considered staying even before I asked her and she did say that she will stay her in the near future but did not want to set a time.
When she left I walked her out to the car and she initiated the kiss and hug and thanked me for a wonderful dinner and evening and said she would call when she got home to let me know she was safe.
Piecing is a very slow process. But I think the end is worth it.
