NC - W vanished ...

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A quote for ya.

'Facts point us toward solutions. Illusion leads us astray. That's true for children as well as adults' Dr Harley

Cutter, I've got to be honest. I never actually fully understood that quote for my sitch. Facts point us towards solutions - I have facts but I have no solutions that I can think of. Illusion leads us astray - the illusion here may very well me thinking I can save my M! Not sure ... elaborate.

Its time to answer my questions from yesterday. And if you having some wine right now. Tonight is a good night to stay completely sober. Not a touch of booze until you get out of this cycle.

Cutter, I a man who drinks rarely. Since W has left that has been upped, must confess. And I do it at the wrong time. I'm not violent, I'm not aggressive but sometimes you just feel like a drink, you know. In the last 4 months I've probably consumed about 8 bottles of wine and a half dozen pints. Not an awful lot.

Anyway ...

REFLECT not DWELL.
I hope your writting. If not please start.

I do write sometimes. That was suggested by the IC. I do feel however that writing just rips it out of me and I either don't finish or I'm a mess at the end. It's something I'm more reluctant to do than before and I'm not sure if it helps me.

You need to track your progress. I know your doing it here in posts. But to actually write it out is very different.

I don't know what progress I need to track though. I don't appear to making any progress at the moment with me and no progress on the M.

You get to give yourself truthdarts.

I think I know what truthdarts are. I've only started seeing them mentioned recently though. Again, can you elborate?

So today is a good day right?

It's not a bad day ... that's about as much as you will get out of me It's not as bad as I thought it was at the time.

Did you go for your walk?

See above quote about the plummeting temperatures! I have been out though.

What are your plans for the weekend ?

I have D this weekend. She's just gone to bed.