NC - W vanished ...

[P17]

How far away is the next grocery store? Just incase you can not deal with this. Calm and collect. In difference to the scum bag.

Cutter, the word cum bag actually made me feel better. Everybody is so calm and collected on here it's nice to hear an expletive once in a while, even if it's a mild one.

There are three shops closer to me than this one. The problem is, the one where W works is huge and has everything in it so it's one trip. Tonight I could have went to another and got the stuff I wanted but I decided not to. No reason. Just decided not to. Maybe I was mean to go to the shop tonight. Who knows.

In addition to that there is no effing way in hell I am let those two actually change my behaviours, even if it something as simple as where I shop. I go somewhere else and they get to continue their A without being reminded of what they have done? BZZT. No. No way. Ain't happening.

I know you asked if I could shop elsewhere for ME, in case I can't handle it. You are completely right, I may not be able to handle it but it is only a bloke working in a shop. Right? Small consolation - their Saturday is messed up as he was working. Means something to me ...

That is ok my friend. She knows who the enemy is as well. She also can now put a face to the person who altered her world as well. There is nothing wrong with you here. You were calm and collect and your daughter watched how you handled your self. This would be a great chace to have a life lesson conversation here. How it is better to act on facts in a postive way. Than to lose control and end up doing something that can harm yourself or others. I am sure you can think of many more.

I had a quick chat with her earlier as she was asking what was wrong with me.

I had another longer chat when she went to bed and I told her about actions having consequences and that married people do not have boyfriends and girlfriends.

She understood why I stopped contact with W - she said it was like me and OM having a tug of war with W in the middle. I explained that I had to let go of that rope. She has decided to call OM - Mud Face ... that's better than the name I had so it will do fine.

Calm and collect. You are a strong person. You made the right choice. Next time give a little wink.

That I DO like ...

And do not forget to smile and wave with the security people. If you know them.

I don't know them unfortunately.

Too late to do that.

Why is it too late to do that? He has only just started working there?

Just let it go. The store knows about it already. You let it play out without your involvement. Embrace the path of Plan B. Keep in the dark. Do not send a message that your hurting from this and need to lash out in any way.

I suppose you may be right. It may also be counterproductive for the reasons I mentioned above (I don't know about you but I'd hate to work with my BF / partner)!

Did you take a walk on the beach yet? Let the sound of the waves calm you.

It's about -5 degrees here today cutter. And yesterday was just as cold. In fact it's been snowing here ... gave the beach a miss

I think you did the right thing tonight. You were strong. You passed a huge test. What was that test? P17 can continue with his life. P17 did not give up any aspect of his life to the Adultery. P17 is a man who has an inner strength which will help him overcome the shortcomings of others. I am Proud of ya P. Look how far you have come. And you did this while going through a hard cycle.

You know how to say the right things cutter. They are helpful and encouraging words. Thank you for them.

P.S. Did you learn to mindread over night?

That you will need to explain ...

And I loved this woman again ... why?
Beats me. But sounds like you still do

It beats me too ... and while I know I love her, she's not making any of this sh*t easy. My head wants to get her away from me as quickly as possible. My heart ain't there yet. It get's there and then something happens (contact from mIL, OM working in the shop yada yada).

MIL thing has been concerning me too. For me to move on fully I need to make it clear to them that NC is for them too as I need to make a completely clean break. It's tough and it hurts but I feel that would be the best way. However I am reluctant. MIL may (and I need to stress MAY) be a good ally to have in helping to sway W. However, if what I know is correct (and the evidence I have kind of confirms it) she supports the A, the W and me and D being left behind.

One other thing that is bothering me. MIL said she would send presents to either me or D's mum. The D's mum thing confused me. She's never said anything like that before. I am beginning to wonder if she thinks that me and D's mum are together again ... we are together a lot and have been seen out eating, shopping etc. Maybe word has got back ... not sure if to quash that rumour or use it. I feel quash it may be better.

This is something I'm just not sure about yet. Will be calling her on Monday anyway when I get the parcel with the presents. Not sure how to handle that other than being upbeat and positive.