more journaling - not much IM yesterday but around 8 last night she called and we talked for about an hour. She stated the conversation with the fact that our male puppy (I guess in puppy years he would be 15) was humping a huge teddy bear she keeps in her living room and wanted to know if it was normal. She said he was taking after me with my testosterone supplements and all. With a nice laugh she said I could borrow the teddy bear if I wanted to. Our conversation then kinda stayed on the semi sexy theme for the whole call.
Also noted that she and I were both drinking a Cosmo. (Her favorite mixed drink). She had previously kinda invited herself over to my apartment this Wednesday night for me to cook her dinner and so I bought the supplies to make her a cosmopolitan and I had wanted to mixed one up to make sure I had the recipe right. The recipe made two drinks and I was halfway through my first one when she called, so we did a toast over the phone (although, I do not remember what we toasted) She asked if it was ok to move the dinner up to tonight as her girlfriend wanted her to go to a girls night out play on Wednesday and I said that would be great. She also asked about the large suite case which she would need for her upcoming Sister trip cruise. I said I had one over here but I really did not know if it was hers or mine. She said that they were ours. (A Good way of Thinking on her part) I had previously told her that she was a really sexy lady and she should start wearing some of her sexy underwear again, even if she had no plans for anyone to see them. Told her that she would know that she was wearing them and that would make her feel sexy and confident and that feeling would project to others around her. Said she went shopping and stopped by the sexy underwear section and looked for some new ones, but did not get anything. Told her it was a step in the right direction.
We also talked about possible cruise between Christmas and New Years which she had previously hinted at going on and she did not say she would not be able to go by then and even said she would look for a good bargain like the one she found for the sister trip. We both said we wanted a cabin like the one we had on our first cruise. She also talked about her decision she had made on the merger of her business and that she did not want to do that but had come up with an alternative solution. I told that her decision was a good one and I was proud of her for making it. Talked about getting my stuff out and she said that that was not a happy thing to think about and thanked me for doing it and I said that that is what she wanted and that if things turned abound that we could put them back one day.
I remember that over the last weekend she had said that she was feeling like a highschooler again. And I told her that that is the way I was feeling again too. I hope that last weekend and tonight can give her the feeling that she enjoys my company and can help her unload that stored up anger she said she still has so she can really start to help me tear down that brick wall.
all please wish me luck on the dinner tonight. Been awhile since I cooked anything other than a tv dinner or a can of soup so I will need it.
