feel like giving up - talk to me!

[luvless]

Thank you ST - I am listening aside from my attitude. I have no choice than to work on me..there is nothing left to do. Last night he came home really late. I don't even know where the heck he was...it felt awful. I am so exhausted. He is done..just done..and there isn't anything I can do for our M.

The only thing left for me is to pick myself up and keep from falling apart. I am going to back way off...way off. I'm done too being beat up. I have accepted the fact that my H is going to walk away..and on top of it..blame me for it.

It takes everything in me not to cry throughout the day..outta nowhere! Anyway...enough of my negativity. I am on my own now...so I will do for me. I went shopping this morning and bought this cool calvin klein coat I wanted and will continue retail therapy.

Today I did...

prayed - meditated (even though I felt like sh*t)
shopped - for me
nap - so dang tired
dinner at friends house w/ the kids

I have my best friend who has been calling and checking on me...I don't know what I would do without her and you guys.

Luv