Think OW is here in my house right now!

[Gnosis]

AFG,

I think Greek is worried about you because of this last paragraph:

All of my feelings and emotions for him have come back in full force and I don't know how to get myself picked back up again. I wish they would all just go away because this feels like the bomb just got dropped on me yesterday and I'm having get over him all over again.

I think she took this as a sign of you contemplating reconciliation. If I read you correctly I know that this is not the case. No one knows better than you the kind of man you have dealt with over the years. No one knows better than you how ill he is.

To answer your question: The best way to pick yourself up is to start getting busy. DO NOT stay at home alone. Go to friends and family and let them support you. Start becoming active in your environment (work, friends, sports, family etc)

With all you wrote in your post above:

OUTSTANDING PERFORMANCE IN THE LINE OF FIRE

EXCELLENT, EXCELLENT, EXCELLENT!!!

You may feel that you broke down and didn't retain your cool, but I don't see it that way at all. Its good that he saw the pain he caused you. Its good that he realize the damage caused. Do not see your tears as a sign of weakness or neediness. They are a natural, inevitable process and a step towards healing.

I'm so glad that you were prepared for that talk. You said all the right things. Did all the right things. Behaved the right way. I don't think there is one person here who could claim to as come close to the way you handled yourself.

Let the waterworks flow as much as you want and don't feel guilty for them. It's OK to grieve. Take your time and heal. You're mourning the loss of your marriage. You've had a lot dropped into your lap these past few weeks and your mind is trying to come to grips with it. Unfortunately it takes time.

((( AFG )))