NC - W vanished ...

[P17]

I tried to edit the last post but by the time I had finished, the time to update it had expired.

I'm afraid this is nothing more than a pity party just now. At least I understand that. It's been a bad few days and my nose is getting raw from the amount of rubbing it's getting.

The next bit is pure venting and to be ignored.

I really have had enough of this just now. I know they are moving on with their lives but do they have no consideration? No regard? No interest in the embarassment they are causing? The girl I asked in the store, who he was, knew exactly who he was and was praying to god that I didn't - I could see it in her face. The woman wanders around like butter wouldn't melt in her mouth, and yet has removed herself completely from a 7 year relationship almost overnight. I get no contact from her family (MIL excluded) and I just have to sit here and accept that I, P, is responsible for all this sh*t and I should just 'move on with my life' because she has? It's like I've hit a rubber wall ... everytime I take a run at it or hit it, it just throws me back onto the floor.

I thought I had come a long way, but, where exactly have I got to? Everytime I think I get somewhere BAM, something else hits me. I am tired. I am hurting. I feel almost as bad as I did when she left. The worst part is, she just does not care. The woman you laughed, loved and shared with for 7 years has dissolved that entire time in 4 short months.

Vent over.