sometimes, I wonder if I should be feeling so good and happy as I do most days. I am so looking forward to Christmas this year! I still pray for my W everyday and miss her. I pray my kids are able to continue to get through this time of their lives with their mom not home everyday. I'm not too concerned about why I feel good but sometimes wonder if I should be guilty for not being down more often. I do have days and moments when I'm not feeling good but for the most part am very happy.
I am grateful to have my kids home with me everyday, I'm grateful for my job and manager, my friends (new and old). family especially my new niece and all the little things life brings everyday. I'm loving baking more and more each day.
I have noticed my W calls me more often lately and not always about the kids or finances. If I am busy or don't feel like talking with her I don't answer, otherwise I'll take her call and be pleasant and listen as best as I can. In addition, she has taken a more active roll in their school this year which is an improvement after she dropped the bomb. I'm glad she is trying to be in the kids lives again.
