Well folks - I am kinda down today - even though I was upbeat and happy, it seems that yesterday the IM and the later phone call (from me to her) was more in the tone of an Ex-wife, rather than a new girlfriend. I guess that this can be expected though as she is still on her roller coaster ride too. I was thinking of some of what she was saying Tuesday afternoon in our talks and was wondering if anyone has any comments on it.
She told me that she had gone to Johnnie’s Hideaway (a local singles bar that caters to the late thirties to mid fifties crowd) the other night and just sat and watched the Tennessee / Georgia football game. She said she did not talk with other guys altho several did approach her and seemed disappointed that she did not go home with them. She asked me if I was upset with her for doing that. I told her no - and hoped that she had had a good time. She also talked about the upcoming sister trip cruise. She said that this would be the first cruise without me and wanted to know if I was upset that she was going on the cruise. Again I said that I think the sister trip is very good and I hope she will have fun.
Although it is just the day after, I wonder if the reality of the final order has started to set in with her.
When she dropped the bomb, she made the statement that she wanted her house back. (I had sold my house and moved in with her when we were married) She is still talking about when I get the rest of my stuff out of her house. This kinda makes me feel that she is just thinking about a R in which we may never get back together again.
She also stated that she picked up on some of my hints in the physically intimacy area and told me that some of the Anti-Depressants had dulled her libido and sexual drive. She said the Dr told her to keep taking them through the holidays but she did remind me that she would not be on them forever.
