Eh, only ran 20 miles instead of the 23. I didn't feel like getting up at 2am to run, got up at 3 instead. Wind chills in the 40s and I didn't get warm the whole time. A friend of mine invited this man to run with us and later I realized he was a man I would run into at Starbucks. He'd pay lots of attention to me and I thought he was creepy. It wasn't a setup though. Just coincidence. I figured out who he was after he dropped off after 10 miles. Funny.
The kids rescheduled with WAH to see him today in the afternoon instead of this morning. They don't want to sleepover at his place either. It's their cousin's bday (H's niece) I haven't bought a gift. It's his turn with them, so his responsibility. The kids so hate this sitch but they are afraid to tell him. I've been telling them that they are free to share their feelings (with me too) even if it is difficult and they shouldn't have fear. I feel I've been giving them a bad example by being afraid of H's reactions. The three of us act in fear of H.
I've got to admit here... I'm hoping for a sign from H that I won't have to file. That he wants to reconcile and has realized what a mistake he's made. <sigh> Rollercoaster again... darn endorphines are betraying me. I'm going to go get a pampering massage and take care of me.
Oh, the friend that I ran with was a WAS and she mentioned she returned after seeing all the 180 changes her H did and she noticed it. Thought I'd share that.
I'm going to plan to be busy tonight and make sure I have fun. I need more healing.
M40, H39 M17 T20 D13, S12 H moved out 05/09 D filed 1/10
A friend of mine invited this man to run with us and later I realized he was a man I would run into at Starbucks. He'd pay lots of attention to me and I thought he was creepy. It wasn't a setup though. Just coincidence. I figured out who he was after he dropped off after 10 miles. Funny.
