Separated, new baby, but still hopeful

[chatterbug]

Yes I will be able to keep the boundary. It is her choice if she wants to help herself. Its not a forum. She either owns her sh*t or she does not. Either way, thats her problem. I gave her some hints that life can be better. And I leave it at that.

As for the physical. No. I have not. I got EA on one girl. But I made sure I did not contact her for a month while I worked it out. And when I saw her again. I had the feelings. So I waited again for awhile. And the last 2 times I saw her. I was in control of my feelings. Its not there. But I did use this to heal. And no one got hurt.

Dating to me means. Good conversation, good company ,good food. Nothing more.

I still have a ton to deal with from the adultery. It would be unfair to myself to deny myself the chance to deal with it. I have not kissed another person in 15 years.

So I heal. And I enjoy my life. GAL includes these things. As does the parallel path I follow.

I really do not want to complicate my life any more.

I had a good evening tonight. Out with 2 friends. And way too many pints. I am writing this on 8 pints.... And its cold here.... So off I go to bed.

Next year some time I will start to date for that next level. Not now I am not ready. And to me dating means. Living my life. Stuff happens. Lets see where it goes. If it does not happen. That is ok as well. I am not worried.

2010 is my year.