I can take it no more soldiers wife need help

[armywifevampi]

yes i did open one ... thats why i think he said when my doughter confronted him about the money....

he said that im spending it and that why cant he its his money ... and he cant spend it how he pleases that i get payed to and that i can do it to,,,, she when off on him ,,,,,

well ive tried every time i do nothing they dont call me back from there

[bluerain]

You know what AW, your D is an adult- maybe not to you lol, but she is a big girl. And I think that her father needed to hear this from her. Its not that surprising that he reacted the way that he did. Right now anyonewho disagrees with him and what hes doing will be a bad guy. He needs to be told that he is hurting her, it would have absolutely no effect if you said it, but Ill bet that it hit him hard coming from her.

Have you tried to talk to your regular doctor about it? Even if you dont have a regular doctor, almost all clinics will take tricare, and any doctor will write you a referral, most regular docs have very little training in psychology, so they will write you a referral, maybe even recommend someone if you ask for it.

[armywifevampi]

the funny part is he gose to him mommy and talks to her for 1hr funny ....

how befor he called when every and ever since here and over there she hasent even worried about sending him nothing whats so ever..

and he turns to her and not the family that has been there for him throw it all and backed him up all the way funnie haaaa

im stoping all comunications with his family i dont think that it would be good anyways she dont care for use just his son ....

hes just like her anyways she didnt even try or ould never try to say hes wrong in any way pluse our doughter is 18 and i know now more then ever she would not are anyways im sure shes putting things...

in his mine thats how she works ....but yes i dont do no harm never have ... why cuz im to nice im the most nices human alive i would never cheat or hurt no one... even if u hurt me and i know thats wrong ... i just dont have it in me ....

im tring so hard just to be me right now nd i dont want to be taken advantage again for being this way ...

its that i guess it affects people diffrent and me it affects my emotions and my well being and productivity in everything i do ...

thats what im tring to privent i shut down i dont funshion correctly when my feelings and my life is hurt ...and my baby girl shes stonger then me shes like her dad ... thats why she can be the mean to anyone if she has to ...

i told her to rubb that on me ...lol...

i realy need the strignth to do this for my self ... i realy do

[armywifevampi]

after seeing my girl do what she did its an eye opener... big time and i think i need it to for i have never seen her so angry at someone... thats not acting like her father ....

he has been this way for a while and i think he wanted to do this from the beging but he didnt have balls to do it while he was here...

but know that hes so far away and he dosent need to talk to me or here me or see me its easyer for him to do it this way i guess...

for someone to think and want to do this this way there has to be reson to every acttion we take in life and i dont think it was me at all.... i think he wants to be whom he always wanted to be but i guess... with me he couldnt why dont know...

i do love him alot and i dont think i cant let that go ... but if letting that love go is a good thing in my life and my girls and i will try my best to...

its just sad that u have 21years in this life and to just wach it fall apart for ur selfishness and ur self respect tours what ever ur reson might me .... dose no make scien to me maybe to him...

but i thought the service any brach teach u that family is everything in life its all u got when and when ur not around and i think he did not cash that ...

just like i didnt cash that when u join the army thats ur wife and we are the misstreas sad but alot of the wifes told me that ...

and im sorry but im a wife, lover,friend and more to my husband in everyway... i can be never had a problem .....

but i dont wish to be the last chose he makes cuz i was the first and was dropped to 2nd when he joine and i was ok with that .... and now im none to his eyes .... im nothing not even the mother of his doughter ....

he cant even call me that just this .... i dont care ur nothing...harshhhh words for a soldier to speak to his ladie that way when we to are soldiers cuz we are married to them...

not cuz of what they can do for our country but what we do for then and our country.... make sure there always in the best of all so they can do the best in all.... thats what ive always done...

but i guess im not enough in any kind of way for him no more...

very lonly sad depress ... wanting to give up on everything and anything just cant take the pain no more when my hart hurts ....
my mind cant think or do anything right .....

why why why cant i be strong like others and be who i am why cant i let go off this that hurts me so bad.... cuz i love him sometime love is bad and i think i have that part...

[armywifevampi]

anyone coming from a man point of view if u had everything u can ever emagin what would u be missing ........... what cuz i wouldnt be missing nothing but the wormth and the love of my soldier in my arms ..........

but i guess in my pic. thats not it is it i try to hard i guess to understand men when i cant realy say for no one cuz ive only been with him ....

but i realy realy can say that this is tearing what little respect i have for him and my self .... why dose that feel wrong to sometimes want to hold on to something u shouldnt anymore ....

why is it hard to let go when u want to but u cant ....

is it becouse im so usto him or cuz i love him , cuz i just cant live with out him , or is it cuz i cant find my self in the real world face to something so much looking like lonelyness....

[armywifevampi]

sorry just righting what im feeling didnt find a paper at the time but this is what i try to take out and try to feel beter...

about everything and anything i can .... but i think i just say this cuz its me that need the help in finding my self back to reality and not going back to a fantacy like a book ....

i guess i sometimes pic. my life to be a story in the fantacy section i think we all have dreamed that one but i think ive been dreaming to long and i need to wake up ....

and smell the world for what it realy is and for what im in store for .........

[armywifevampi]

so so so confused ... it hurts even to say it ..........

[bluerain]

Hi AW. Im so sorry that you are having a hard time. Have you called your doctor yet? I really think that you need some medicine. It will help you to focus on what you need to do in this situation.

Make this choice today: You will be fine. No matter what happens with your H, you cant control his actions so you will focus on your own actions and on making your life an excellent one.

Make this choice today: You will not allow him to be nasty to you. Hand up on him if you must, but you need to stand up for yourself. You daughter will learn from you in this situation- teach her honorable things. Do you want her to allow her future husband to abuse her like this, or do you want her to stand up for herself and have self respect?


AW- there is great value in letting people who do not value you go. Does he value you?


I promise you, by allowing him to treat you this way, you are prolonging his behavior. Until you stand up for yourself, he will continue to act this way and keep making you feel this way.

[armywifevampi]

well im back and my deprestion is still at large im tring my hardest .... he tried to contact me today ...

by email he asked how i was my hands where shaking and my tears where falling ... but i told him .. im fine .... he asked about his doughter ... i said shes fine....

he said he was sorry for deing an as-ho-- all the time that he knows hes one and hes sorry ... that there was alot of fu-- ups in our marrige ...

i said ok

then he started treating me as a friend ... i just broke down and started to cry ....

i realy cant take it when i talk to him or here from him or know about him i cant i realy cant ....

he said i promiss ill keep in touch sweety .... like if i was just another girl friend in his life ...

i said bye and just left the mail....

that just tore me up so bad i cant even think no more .... HELP ME I CANT TAKE IT NO MORE PLEASE....

i dont even leave the house or eat cuz its been 21years together for someone just to come around and act like its ok to be friends ........

i realy cant do that i cant and i know hes going to keep on tring and hes going to end up getting mad at me again cuz i dont think im going to answer him at all.........

what do i do ive tried everything but i still dont have the will power to do anything at all .......

i cant stop CRYING over this feeling or anger to him for acting like its ok to be friends ......

i have a very strong word im feeling right now and i hope its ok to shout it out cuz I HATE HIM right now i realy do ......

for not feeling nothing at all for the way hes tring to treat me now .......

[armywifevampi]

WHY WHY WHY cant i break away and except what every it is hes throwing my way .............OMG HELP ............