Pls help--confused and fearful

[Day by Day]

You all are wonderful! Thanks for the support. I'm feeling okay with my decision.

I haven't worked on any of the D paperwork, yet. I'm dreading it. But, I do have to do it.

P, again you see the positive side of the sitch. But, I have my doubts; H is a narcissist. I appreciate hearing a man's point of view though. I really wish he would be feeling all you describe, but he lacks empathy. I know he looooves to be in control, so maybe he is worried about my silence. Headless chicken, don't think so. This guy is a tough nut to crack.

Anyway, not letting it get to me for now. I went to dinner with my friends last night and enjoyed myself. Not one minute sad or crying about my decision. Then today, went to IC and I only cried thinking of our first Xmas as a family without H for the kids' sakes. I hate him for doing this to our kids. They are innocent victims.

And they have to see him tomorrow. He's going to give me the property taxes to pay. Guess he's going to feel like a tough guy sticking me with the over $5k bill and the kids' school tuition bill and no $. Hopefully I'll be feeling all the endorphines from running 23 miles tomorrow and I won't care that he comes over. Off to sleep I go...