I can take it no more soldiers wife need help

[armywifevampi]

after seeing my girl do what she did its an eye opener... big time and i think i need it to for i have never seen her so angry at someone... thats not acting like her father ....

he has been this way for a while and i think he wanted to do this from the beging but he didnt have balls to do it while he was here...

but know that hes so far away and he dosent need to talk to me or here me or see me its easyer for him to do it this way i guess...

for someone to think and want to do this this way there has to be reson to every acttion we take in life and i dont think it was me at all.... i think he wants to be whom he always wanted to be but i guess... with me he couldnt why dont know...

i do love him alot and i dont think i cant let that go ... but if letting that love go is a good thing in my life and my girls and i will try my best to...

its just sad that u have 21years in this life and to just wach it fall apart for ur selfishness and ur self respect tours what ever ur reson might me .... dose no make scien to me maybe to him...

but i thought the service any brach teach u that family is everything in life its all u got when and when ur not around and i think he did not cash that ...

just like i didnt cash that when u join the army thats ur wife and we are the misstreas sad but alot of the wifes told me that ...

and im sorry but im a wife, lover,friend and more to my husband in everyway... i can be never had a problem .....

but i dont wish to be the last chose he makes cuz i was the first and was dropped to 2nd when he joine and i was ok with that .... and now im none to his eyes .... im nothing not even the mother of his doughter ....

he cant even call me that just this .... i dont care ur nothing...harshhhh words for a soldier to speak to his ladie that way when we to are soldiers cuz we are married to them...

not cuz of what they can do for our country but what we do for then and our country.... make sure there always in the best of all so they can do the best in all.... thats what ive always done...

but i guess im not enough in any kind of way for him no more...

very lonly sad depress ... wanting to give up on everything and anything just cant take the pain no more when my hart hurts ....
my mind cant think or do anything right .....

why why why cant i be strong like others and be who i am why cant i let go off this that hurts me so bad.... cuz i love him sometime love is bad and i think i have that part...