the funny part is he gose to him mommy and talks to her for 1hr funny ....

how befor he called when every and ever since here and over there she hasent even worried about sending him nothing whats so ever..

and he turns to her and not the family that has been there for him throw it all and backed him up all the way funnie haaaa

im stoping all comunications with his family i dont think that it would be good anyways she dont care for use just his son ....

hes just like her anyways she didnt even try or ould never try to say hes wrong in any way pluse our doughter is 18 and i know now more then ever she would not are anyways im sure shes putting things...

in his mine thats how she works ....but yes i dont do no harm never have ... why cuz im to nice im the most nices human alive i would never cheat or hurt no one... even if u hurt me and i know thats wrong ... i just dont have it in me ....

im tring so hard just to be me right now nd i dont want to be taken advantage again for being this way ...

its that i guess it affects people diffrent and me it affects my emotions and my well being and productivity in everything i do ...

thats what im tring to privent i shut down i dont funshion correctly when my feelings and my life is hurt ...and my baby girl shes stonger then me shes like her dad ... thats why she can be the mean to anyone if she has to ...

i told her to rubb that on me ...lol...

i realy need the strignth to do this for my self ... i realy do


Me: 35 yrs
H: 35 yrs
D: 18 yrs
Married: 21 yrs
H is over seas : July. 2009, "not happy now..confused" "don't know what I want" "I love you, but not in love with you"
Currently: confused and lonely