here we go again

[bluerain]

Eh, its nice to fantasize about those things. Even if theres no chance that it will actually happen.

I fantasize about leaving my house which is in H's name, the heat which he never got fixed, and I cant afford to, would fail, the pipes would freeze and tens of thousands of dollars of damage would be done to the house. He would have to drop everything and travel across the country to deal with a hugely damaged house. I have no intention of doing so, as this will be my house when the D is over, but the though of doing it makes me smile.

So, I think that its fine that you have those little thoughts, but dont do anything that you cant be proud of, or honest about.