Don't worry- I'm not feeling sorry for myself anymore, I got over it. It was a bad couple of days at the beginning of the week, but then I started getting busy working around the townhouse. I got my tree set up, unpacked a few more boxes, and got some decorating ideas. I learned that I do need to stay busy to keep my PMA. After the holidays, I want to contact a couple of friends and see if I can arrange something. (And thank you Wifey, I will look for you in the alt.)
That guy who gave me a bad time on Friday contacted me last night, and I surprised myself by telling him- "You hurt me, stay away from me". That's an improvement, normally I just would have buried that. Maybe I'm started to get a backbone. At least he apologized- but I still want him to stay away from me. How he misunderstood "I don't want to" is really questionable.
H still checks in on me a couple of times a week, things like "I'm going to the store, do you need anything?" My answer is always the same, "No thank you, I'm all set." Pleasant, but I don't really engage in much conversation.
My next goal is to invite someone other than my kids, H or my parents to the townhouse (meaning a friend) and start rebuilding a social life. I'm proud of where I am.
I haven't found myself thinking about him, or wondering what he's doing (OK- except that one time when I checked his profile). It just doesn't occur to me during the day or evening.
