Just wanted to say that I am doing exactly that for my Son. Don't want this divorce to hurt his outlook either. Love and marriage is a wonderful thing and I let him know this. If it werent wonderful then this divorce wouldnt be hitting me so hard in the first place.
I did not get physical or anything with my wife last night. Only told her how I felt and raised my voice to her. She just absolutely will not tell me why she really wants a divorce and this is killing me. "I dont love you anymore" just doesnt compute with me. She never came to me to tell me there was a problem. That is what is killing me.
It's like Im fighting a battle with an invisible enemy.
No I was not perfect and in retrospect I have did a lot of soulsearching and now clearly see some of my faults. I am working on them now as I never want to repeat this ever again in the future. Could not handle something like this again. I KNOW that I will be a better person. Im going that way now but it's slow because Its hard to change oneself.
As far as what state Im in? I would say that it feels like I am in anger, denial, acceptance and grieving all at the same time. Im sorry but that is the way it feels. I really just dont know where I am right now. Im all over the place from day to day.
I do really worry about my wife now as she is not the person I married. Her father passed away recently and she showed no emotions. When our Son moved out she also showed no emotions. And with this divorce that she threw on me she shows no emotions. She is as cold as ice towards me. Like a robot. Yet when she talks to friends and family she is her normal friendly and loving self. I just dont get it. How is this possible.
Me:48 W:55 M:22 T:23 Bomb:19Nov09 S:15Jan10 D:11Feb10 EA:Confirmed on 20Apr10 Fast track to her divorcing me
