Dont ignore the warning signs (warning, Im venting

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Yes I needed that 2x4 thx guys.

Needless to say I am going to stay away from the beer until she is out of my house. Mind you that I am not a big drinker to begin with. It was a social thing with my brothers who drink every weekend.

I am Dbing in that I am doing some 180s. I have always tried to do nice things for her so it's not like there are a lot of 180s I can switch on. How I dress is one of them but I dont have a budget for a whole new wardrobe just yet.

I am trying to look better and show her I am trying to be a better person and take this divorce as a man. And I am trying not to be clingy or needy and I try to stay out of her way. I try to be an independant (strong) man around her and try to only cry or vent in private (shower or car etc).

For myself I am exercising and getting closer to friends and family that I have not been that close with in the past. This part feels good and I am connecting with my brothers again.

Im also dieting. Went from 251 to 238 lbs in a short time. If there is one thing for sure it's that a divorce will do wonders for weight loss. I don't even think about food now and sometimes have to force myself to eat something durring the day.

All this is hard on me. After 22 years of marriage it's hard to change my thinking. Every time I think Im strong and can finally move on, it seems I wake up the next morning and feel like Im on day one of my situation and break down just before I have to go to work.

I wish I was as strong as some of you here.