well, I was stupid last night. Brought D to dance which is every Tues and Thurs and then went to drop off her school stuff at ex's house, he wasn't home and he had his phone bill out. I really, really wanted to look at it, but didn't, but d's school stuff away, went to the bathroom, let dogs out and then I couldn't stand it anymore and looked at the bill and saw that he had called his tenant once in Oct and only talked 1 min and again in Nov for one min. he called on 10-28 so I figured he was asking about the rent but in Nov he called her on 11-25 which is Tues, when nobody is there and d is at dance and I know he couldn't call on thurs due to turkey day. but he had friday off from work, so he could of called her then. I just got crazy. Actually, I'm crazy now!! I know that he had asked her out before, so now I see her # and go crazy. Our therpist who was so stupid told me in a session with me that he had an interest in her. She told me that like when we first divorced. I know I have to stop this!!! But I can't I only want him to be with me. once I found out that he asked her out, I went to her apt crying like a mad woman telling her how much I loved him and wanted to get back with him and she told me that they are just friends. I never pictured myself as the jealous type, but I guess I am.
