I know your right elwood. I had a long talk with OM last night, he told me he always felt like a side dish in my life and that he knows I still have feelings for my ex-h and that I put my ex on a pedestal. He was analyzing the relationship correctly, we cried and then I went home. I have been driving around with my air conditioner in my car for about a month. The ex offered to take it up to my apartment, but I said no, that he works hard enough. I don't want him feeling that I am spending time with him so that he can do things for me. He did everything for me when we were married and I want him to see that I am becoming more self suffieient. Don't you ever feel like your a feather in the wind, I guess thats the best way to describe it. I just floating day after day not knowing where I should be or where I will land.
