I know you think we are all beating you over the head over and over again, and that in itself is one of the issues.
So many people here care about you, and want you to succeed, including myself, that they are posting to you exactly what you need to move forward from a place of caring in compassion! They are not putting you down, or calling you out!
You need to understand where you are developmentally and accept it. That is a hard thing to realize and accept but it is a must.
I know, I see now where I was, at almost 40 years old, I had not 'grown up' yet. Ugh, how the heck can that be? It just is, so accept it yourself. Making that determination and then accepting it, is key to helping you then move on.
There is a difference between age and maturity. Read those books suggestions, and you will see where it applies to you as well if you are open to it, and reflecting on your life and what has brought you to this point, as it is evident in your posts and as 25yearsmlc described above so eloquently.
M: 41 STBXW: 41 D: 9 Bomb: 4/26/09
On board the D train now..
"Suffering is when we try to change what we cannot."
