The continuing saga of P ...

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Entitlement. She is still at this stage. And it is only natural to feel the sting. You are human. Spying has risks. Your not ready to do this again for awhile. Heal from this. Water off a ducks back. Good thing your in your 30's and you can see how childish this is. How hurtdarts are for 14 year olds

Cutter, if I didn't know you better I would tell you to go away.

You're right, again, I'm not ready to do this or hear about this again. I can see how childish this is .. 'Me and my man' are you 16? WTF ... you're a 32 year o9ld woman and he is 45 for f*cks sake ... anyway, it still hurts. Just remember W that when you were born he ws moving into High School .. does that put the sh*t into perspective for you? Anyway guys you have no idea how this non-violent guy want to go up and smack this predator ...

Don't mean nothing my friend. Don't mean nothing
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But it does cutter. When you feel like this everything means something.

You are. You did not commit adultery. Just let it slide. Remember it. Use anger to help you on your down days. Anger can be useful if controlled.

How?
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You answered your question with the next sentence
NC has been good for me. But I am now questioning why I am holding off on the D. Patience, patience and patience. I know I need some. Sometimes though, as I said, you just want to give up, roll over, and go to sleep.

Cutter, I have done as I said above. I haven't reached the I want to go, however I realched the 'why am I waiting' wall.

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thats good. less for you to look at while dark. no reason to go there anymore. And the rest. Sorry my friend. That was hurtful. Keep it writen down as well.

I don't come here for somebody telling me what I want to hear it. However what I keep hearing is that W has moved on ... so therefore what the effing hell am I doing here? I am wasting my time and yours ... I want to GAL and R my M, however I can GAL without the forum so why waste everybody's time (and I don't mean that as some sort of feel sorry for me response)?

Well P. One month. I am proud. Go read your posts from one month ago. Just think how you will be in another month. When you wake up tomorrow hug your daughter. You weathered the storm. Your head will be hurting tomorrow. So take some pills and drink some water. And go for a long walk on your beach. Listen to your fav. album. And think about what you really want to change going forward into the second half of your life.
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Cutter I will do all of that, but I can do that without thinking qabout W so I ask myself again, what so the point considering her?

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This month coming up is for you. It is your gift to yourself for being strong.

This months will be good. Tonight I have finalised presents and 12 bottles of wine. I am getting there.

I thought all day for a song for you. As you can see music is very important to me.

Me too .. my song of the moment is Let It Die by the Foo Fighters .. there are as few lines that say a lot. But I appreciate the song - I listened on You Yube ...

Can I be honest? Nobody has yet said 'P she is in a daze she will talk / communicate / talk ...

LOL .. sorry, but my W has out NC'd me .... I just find it funny ...