Separated, new baby, but still hopeful

[newmama]

Update:
Well, tonight was fine! Phew! I made sure to wear one of my new "tighter" fitting shirts, flattering jeans, wore my contacts again, did hair and make-up right before he came over. I greeted him warmly with our son and made sure to LOOK HIM IN THE EYE. He returned eye contact.

Something I am working on is asking him more questions about himself BUT it's hard because I tend to ask about activities/events which means I might be finding info about what he does with OW. So I am trying to ask about things about his past, likes/dislikes, you know, about HIM, but without sounding like I am interviewing him or being obvious about what I'm doing.

So I made those attempts and I noticed that he was bringing up more conversation on his own! I can't help but feel bad that I stopped doing this when we were still together.(I have been the talker, he has been the listener)

Anyway, then I worked out, freshened my make up, dressed into pajamas (i.e. yoga pants and tighter v neck red shirt, but I need to find sexier shirts that are warmer than the tank tops I wear in spring/summer) made dinner (used the grill which is a big deal! The gas scares me!)and he put our baby to sleep.

So we ate dinner, watched 2.5 men that had tons of infidelity references...then he cleaned up the kitchen, lingered, and just stood there by the tree, kind of drawing out things to talk about before saying goodbye.

He won't be coming over again until Saturday and that is the night that my SIL watches S and I have my Ugly Holiday Sweater Party.

(FYI I went to my mommy group this morning and brought homemade chicken tortilla soup! It was a hit! Also, they said I looked really good without my glasses and liked my new closthes. I am totally appreciative of any and all compliments right now because I am so insecure, admittedly, for the time being. SO ANNOYING!)