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[awest1217]

Today was...ok. Nothing to write home about, but nothing bad either. H came over for dinner. I dropped his present and card off where he is living so he could think about it without me around. He never said anything about what I wrote. I wrote about what I want to be as a wife. Nothing about being sorry, judging him, or about what I want him to do. Everything was about me and what I want to be. Like I said nothing tonight to write home about. Just a normal night.

The one thing that has me urked is he wrote me a letter as well. I am not sure if it was something because of what I wrote or not, but everything was about what he needs from a marriage and how he hasn't had it. He generally apologized for "making wrong decisions", but no promises and more subtle blaming. No love there. He once again said a lot about being my husband. I just was looking for him to at least promise he would stop what he is doing, maybe fess up. I was looking for something sincere and not generalized and telling me what to do. I wanted him to say what he is going to do to make things better.

Overall, like I said nothing bad and not upset. Did some crying as I think about what this day was 4 years ago, but otherwise I have kept it together. Just thinking.